i couldn fall asleep no matter wad i did. maybe coz veri nervious for 2moro's 1st competition. den i suddenly saw the moon out of my window. its a full moon and its shining so brightly. it reminds me of "her", i saw the image of her beautiful face reflected upon the moon light. so near yet so far, although she looks veri near me but no matter how high i rise my hand i juz couldn get hold of "her". as the daes goes by, the distance between me and "her" grows, so is my care and concerns towards "her". but here comes the "dark clouds", the "dark clouds" are bringin or rather snatchin my beloved "moon" from me. they are blockin my view of her and her view of me. she no longer will still notice of me, and the "moon" 's brightness will slowly fade away.

but as for me, as long as the sun still shines and the earth still revolve around the sun. my feelins for her will nvr fade but increase as the time goes by. i will den hide at a corner and will come out if u ever in trouble and theres no 1 to help u. till den i hope u will feel happi together wif the dark cloud.....

until den, byes...LOL

hey guys! ivan's back! sry yesterdae didn tag coz veri tired. LoL. here goes nth.



yesterdae was sck reopen den went back sck. as usual, mondae is the most horrible dae u can ever get. the HOT weather. the BORIN lessons. and HELL basketball trainin. i can swear tt yesterdae's basketball trainin was the worst of the worst u can ever get. for unknown reasons. i couldn get the damn basketball into the damn net. the basketball juz kepp goin against me. den me coach wans me do so many pumpins...nvm....



den after the whole basketball trainin i was so glad it did. LOL. i cant imagine slept at 7pm yesterdae. haha. tts y no update blog.



2dae arh...let me think...erm. nth imterestin except for drama but the teacher kepp teachin us lame games. haha. durin music. siying was again tokin abt the so called potato man of hers. LOL. 157 onli !!! den abdul took carey's phone. i pity carey ma, somemore she my meimei, so help her lol. dun noe wad i do to offend u all until always make fun of me and carey. now i see her lik veri awkard....haha. i am totally in love wif BOULAVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS!!! IT ROCKS WORLD'! LOL.



carey said i hav a lot readers...is it true? coz the tags always so little nia.so my reader pls tag be4 leavin...!! byes

got ppl ask me update blog liao. LoL. seems lik my reader r not gettin lesser and lesser.LOL. okay lets think wad happen 2dae. acty nt much la coz whole dae chiongin homework. haha. i managed to finsh in 2 daes!! but i cant gurantee the quality will be gd. den abt 1+ my mother dragged me to facial....is lik WTH. i am a boy/men. lOl. FACIAL!!! haha. in the end i waited outside lik 2 hr for them to finish coz i die die also dun wan do. wahaha.

ate laksa for lunch. no bad eh. den reach home liao go ppl's blog see see tag tag lol. nth much to do 2dae. then tian ning suddenly scare me tell me got SO many other homework which i dun noe. LoL.

tts all for dae. lets goback to yesterdae. yesterdae mornin and affternoo were boring to hell. sam thing, do homework. i dun understand y adults dun realise tt HOMEWORK IS TAKIN OVER. HAHA. at night was my cousin's birthae. LoL after celebrating wwe when to the beach to watch the sea flow. veri romantic rights? haha. den we saw a veri cute puppy, it belongs to nobody. den it came over to us and sit down on my legs. den we acty wanted to take it back but my mother no allow. sad :(

my mother 2dae out of a sudden tell us tt we cannot av relationship until we r in sec4. LoL. sadistic.!!! haha. nth to post liao la. 2 more daes to basketball match. LoL. byes.

tired!! haha. yesterdae lk 12 + den slp. wadeva la, 2dae muz chiong homework liao. okay la, got lots of ppl compliant i keep watchin chio bu den got a bad impression of me liao....i promise i wun watch or even mention chio bu liao la. from 2dae onwards, me ivantan, will not watch chio bu liao. watchi shuai ge!! LoL. ya look into the mirror hav 1 liao la. haha. juz jokin...!!

i better get started wif homework! haha. carey mei, r u reali the 1 taggin? y the IP address different??
byes

yesterdae went for the final basketball training for the holidaes. den on the way saw carey and siying. haha. carey lik becaming slimer and slimer lik goin to be a bag of bones liao, but still veri pretty..!! LoL. siying leh, haix. the voice can be compared to trumpet and is the opposite of carey. haha. LoL.

den i reach sck liao, saw all my frens already got their jersey. i so jealous la, coz the jersey is damn cool.mine is still wif teacher at tt time.den train until 4++, mr neo finally come and giv me my jersey liao. the jersey number is "13" !! cannot say unlucky number...coz any number tt goes wif me is lucky!! haha! after tt we continued our match wif northland. they got thrashed!! 92 to 42. we won by 50 points. haha.

wadeva la. my hands and leg achin now. somemore haven finish homework. sian arh!! LoL. byes

2dae went to sck for basketball, den i veri angry. i went to the basketball court as usual, den 2dae veri surprising, nobody was there. nvm. i found out trainin was in the mornin lol. haha. at least 2dae can skip. i am a big slacker. before i go to the basketball court, i walk past a corner ma, den i saw smthin i shdn see. got a senior from chinese dance was dancin( boys shdn see ), den i juz nice walk past. i SAW. LoL. i quicky walk past.

den i faster go home la. anyway nth to do lol. but i saw a chio bu. she was standin opposite of me in the train. i cannot tahan ma. so glance abit la,tat makes my dae. LoL. went home. do homework. blog. nth better to do liao. den asked a person some Q la. found out tat i cannot be compared to larry and gerald in looks. but she said i can win if is overall with looks and characteristic. dun noe whether true anot coz i think i veri rude to some ppl.

nvm i will work hard to reach my target!!! LoL. haha. byes. my readers!! rmb taggies.

2dae is mondae. next wk sck reopen le. dun noe go back sck wad to do...tok to them, be frenly or avoid them and be cold? LoL. yesterdae was father dae. nth interesting thought. didn even see any chio bu around while celebriting it. bad BAD bad. haha.

rmb last time veri shy, dun dare look at chio bu. dun even dare tok abt them. but now different, got confidence liao. dare to smile and shoot "sparks" at them. LoL. but sometimes make frens okay la....

some ppl veri interested in the girl i mention in the previous posts. while i am not goin to tok much abt her, coz rather keep quiet and be gd gd frens. dun noe how girls think nowadaes. i thought last time girls lik bois to lik them( maybe ) coz i lik girls to lik me rather den i go lik them la.so those hu lik me come tell me!! LoL. i doubt any1 will lik me la...haha.

den yesterdae me, my sis and my cousin was sharing all our secrets la. not all, onli those abt relationship de. haha. we veri lame.den we discuss we lik hu blah blah. i wun tell u..figure out urself. haha. but we came to a conclusion tt relationship veri strange. did u guys notice tt when u lik "others" den suddenly will hav a lot ppl come lik u. den when u dun lik the "others" liao den suddenly lik nobody lik u le. veri irritating de lor. wahaha.

carEy mEi, i update liao hor. rmb taggies. nth post liao. byes. be4 i left. last reminder, TELL ME IF U LIK ME...( sry, juz bein curious ) LoL.

2dae is a happi happi game. long time nvr so happi and high liao( i didn take drugs )LoL. btw i juz came back from tuition.veri funny la, my teacher scold bad words, she said few hundred in chinese. den pronoucasion lik "jibai" ma. den she still dun noe the meanin, when we laugh den she keep sayin wad jibai ma, she said wads wrong wif jibai the words. LoL. den chang send me the game crazy taxi..
its FUN. its CRAZY. LoL. i can drive the taxi until few hundred kilometre per hour, somemore wun get fine. wahaha.

guys out there. beware. boon how's acc got hacked liao, den the sicko hacker humji, dun dare admit say he hack. the most 2pid hacker i even seen. somemore keep sendin ppl porn pics, u think ppl will accept? LoL. lik tt nvm leh. he go tell mr koh( our maths teacher ) say i teach him see 1, den wan send mr koh i think. LoL. wads wrong wif the hacker?! HACKER IS RUININ MY LIFE!!!! dun say i hack 1 hor coz i will nvr NVR so such thngs. LOL

byebye, off to crazy taxi.

after the incident, i can finally tell hu's gd and hu's bad. i dun noe wads wrong wif me for the previous few months, i acty thought the gd r the bad and the bad is the gd. LoL. understand? i think not. anyway, come to think of it. i cldn think of any reasons y i liked her in the past( few months ago?). she got those i don care attitude which piss me off everytime. ohya. If u r here and noe hu u r, i am sry to badmouth u but no offence.haha.

2dae went to chang's hse. den his mother's mood not gd in the 1st place liao, so i keep quiet and faster take out tuition homework do liao. den do until half way, got 1 lady come ask for donation la. chang was lik pity the lady so decided to donate pityful amount lik $2? ya. den his mother suddenly veri angry den ask him to the rm and scold him until veri poor thing lol. coz their family lik goin to run into fiancial prob ma, so she veri uptight abt things regardin $$.

to tink chang acty stand dere quietly let her scold lol. i was thinkin...$2 nia. nvm la. juz dun do it everytime la.after scoldin, the entire hse atmosphere lik veri tense liao, but chang somehow cannot feel it ba. he still insist on playin and not doin work. true enough, he got scoldin again. i totally pity him lol.

i noe chang for lik 5 yrs liao.his my bez of the bez fren. durin holidaes his hse lik mine and mine is lik his. becuz u can either find me in his hse or find him in mine.den we everytime get scoldins is together de and got gd things also share.

secondary sck still haven find any frens lik tt de la. hav but not until tt kind of standard, adriel okok la. got share secrets nia...tn..not any liao, after tt incident....carey..erm..gd frens la, cannot too close also, lata alot gossips. LoL, alrdy hav alot!!
oh be4 i forget. still hav 1. HUIWEN JIE She is my gd gd sis. got share some probs and secrets wif her la, den sometimes she got giv me advise and console me. but she live in another end of singapore, SO FAR LOL. haha huiwen jie, nvr miss out liao ba, purposely write big big, all u can compliant is the font not big enough. LOL

nth post liao la. byebye.

2dae went for another scabble competition, althought never get to noe any1 else lik last time but at least i enjoyed the moment. we acty went in to the top 8 u noe.
veri upset 2dae. yesterdae got scoldin or rather opinions from some1 pinky. 2dae i gave it a serious thought. i decided to stop doin all tis stupid things but i will not stop givin u cold shoulders, coz a injury will always leave a scar.

4 matches. i lost 3 but at least got win 1. durin the competition i reali wanted to shout all my pain out but i controlled myself. i reali hope she was dere to confront me, share my trouble and pains but unfortunately she wasn and will nvr noe tt she is tis person. i thought i will nvr hav feelins for her but it is imposible for a livin and kickin human to be cold blooded and not hav feelins for such a wonderful girl.

we were quite close for last few months but until recently, we weren so close liao. every1 stop guessin, coz onli i knew tis person. none of my fren noe her. LoL. she is younger then me though. haix. i will not tell her coz of past mistake. den in the end got avoid.....

die... i gettin alittle despo?? no way. wahaha.i am a jerk, i dlted my class blog!!! nvm la, they deserve it!! haix enought for tis la, my holidae homework, 1 also haven touch leh.aiya. tis world is full of trouble, pain and sadness. happiness will never last long. LoL byebye.

i thought 1/1 was the bez class i can ever be in but it turns out tt i am wrong.
maybe its my prob but tts the way i am. i cannot forgiv some1 tat actually go against me, betray me or even acussin me without proof. its not onli 2 girls tat makes me hate every1, u noe..
unhated: carey mei!! pei yan, hassana, seri, vania.
hated: dq( busybody, emotional freak ) tn( easily influwenced, lack of trust towards fren ) yt( act cute, think veri gd lik tt, busybody ) and etc..

oh ya. btw, if any of u guys happen to read my post, u beta dun tag coz tis blog is anti freako!! 2dae was a great dae until a busybody aka pathetic old auntie came to confront me. in the wrong liao, still act lik so great lik tt.
happi coz i went out to play wif my basketball frens, den went to do many things.(nth illegal) sad coz my mother go bankok liao. so sad!!
nobody come nag at me or come joke wif me lerh. but at least i dun show tt kind of
feelin in front of her so tat she can enjoy her trip.

tats the reason y i didn agree to organise a party for mrs lim. she will feel sad u noe, she wun left to MOE with a free mind. u think i not sad mrs lim goin leave us?! no!! she dotes on me and i can feel it. i wan her to get the bez of the bez and goin to work at MOE means a great oppotunity to earn lots of money and enjoy life after retirement.

wadeva la. u guys r damn simple minded and thus wun understand wad i am sayin. i treat ppl hu treat me well even beta. wad u do for me, i will reciprocate.
haix. 2moro scabble competition again! muz win tis time. byebye

haix. wakin up one dae in a empty hse makes 1 feel greatly sadden and empty.
tt happened to me 2dae. woke up with my sis, father and mother gone, left with me all alone at home. maybe coz lata got basketball ba, so makes me hav tt kind of feelins.

reali sry abt wad happened yesterdae. i didn mean to block u but i juz dun wan ppl to tok me. and i was waitin for a important ppl to on9, so i didn appear off9.
tis time its reali my fault.

haix. carey mei comin back from camp 2dae ma? daes without her is borin!! dun think y y. feelins btwn her and me is juz feelins btwn sibilings. understand?! so dun keep sayin she lik me or i lik her...!!

nth will help resolve the matter liao. so dun try anymore, it makes the matter worse. juz leave it as it is. okay? nth post liao. oh ya. xincii..dun spam my blog!!
byes

the daes r gettin longer nowadaes. wanna find some1 to pour all my feelins onto but to me nobody is trust-worthy anymore. chang yuan can be trusted but his not from anderson. he will nvr understand my probs even if i tell him.i miss the daes when i had some1 to share my probs and troubles. tis daes r lik a dream.

time to wake up!! ivan look!! they r juz dreams nth else.i reali dun care if u all apologise now.the past is the past. its the present now. and it is to live as life is.the future is wads more important. wif high studies degree and a high salary pay. every1 will wan to be ur frens, be ur girl fren, even ur wife.

i agree nobody can succeed wif one-man show but i will make it happen. anyway i am fine wif my class. prefectly fine wif the bois. but the girls is horrible. facin the girls r lik lookin into the toilet bowl full of shits and makes me wanna puke.

no mood blog liao la. byes

i hav nth to say. after so many daes of hatin, i conclude tt my heart and mind went numb. i dun wan to do tis anymore, i wan to take it as nth happened. but i cant.i understand ur personalities and noe tt u lik to joke but ppl take certain things seriously. its fun to joke at times but watch ur limit and dun cross the line. u keep on sayin tt u r my bez fren but do u reali mean it? i doubt it. u dun even understand me a bit, u dun even trust me...wadelse can i say..

one of my bez fren in pri sck did tis to me too. lik wad i said to huiwen jie: bez fren r not safe to keep, they r lik mini bombs hu will explode and leave us 1 dae. i guess we can still be frenz but no longer bez fren or even close fren after wad had happened. another thing. stop bein a busybody hu go around suspectin ppl without prove, worst of all, the person hu's acc tio hack also nvr suspect me. wad rights do u hav there?

went to 1 of the retard's blog. i stated there " ....learn my lessons"??? lol. if i didn rmb wrongly. U ALL R THE ONES IN THE WRONG..y do i hav to learn my lesson when i did nth wrong. if u r readin tis post. freak off as tis blog is anti-freako.

i got nth more to say...bye