dunt have the slightest idea why god is taking away things from me,

maybe i've yet to learn the lesson behind everything.

it still hurts though, but i decided to be fine anyway.
but sometimes..

like i told someone, its not good to be too cheerful anyway.
whats on the outside doesn represent the inside.

victoria told me expert say that one needs double the amount of time to forget someone you love.
i say i need thrice, maybe a lifetime.

hahah thats a joke (:

well, other says that maybe getting into another relation will help.

but i tried, it doesn really help. ( i tried trying to like another one ) -failed
or rather i dunt know how to do it.

it doesnt really matter anymore though.
i have no rights to control anyone in the first place.

at least shes happy w/o me.
(maybe that guy suit her better )
all the best then.

its a new ivan with new life.
hey im single and availble, 14.

anyone interested ? hahha (:

well yesterday go mg 'concert' with victoria and lorena.
i though some kind of like victoria concert hall so big then i wore so formal -.-

in the end its just a small room then have big party only.
quite cool though.

got so interested in beatboxing.
alot chio bu too but overage ! how nice if im born earlier hahha.

anyway met victoria and vivian at 7. reached bugis then they tell me at BHG.
then i went over. guess what.

BHG got 3 storey, she didnt tell me which one then phone also never answer.
haix. haha.

then sent vivian off. then went to eat some japanese reataurant.
my treat sia, haha.

their mango something drink was awesome so was the greeny dessert/desert vic ordered.
( p/s: i dunt know which one is the right spelling LOL )

then lorena came then rushed over to the place.
stand for few hours watch ppl perform.

cool cool cool.

then went mac slack off a bit. then homed !
lorena say i quite gentleman sia (:

wahah. anyway cabbed vic home then went home.
till next time :D