HEY its christmas eve but wheres the spirit :/

he distinctively remember how much he enjoyed the last christmas
he remember how much he long for christmas to come again

then again,
things were different this year.
the life he used to have was no longer his ; he lost everything.

he woke up on a rather gloomy morning
feeling as sleepy as he felt before he slept last night.

he thought maybe its because of the nice raining sensation
or perhaps,
something was lacking.

the lively house he thought it wld be
turned out rather cold and lonely.
he quickly looked around but there wasnt sight of any christmas tree.

he was disappointed, indeed.

he frantically search for a calendar to make sure its the correct date
yes, there wasnt any mistake.
its decemeber 24th, thats christmas eve.

he was stunned things went so badly
he thought life had turned so meaningless.

in that case, he didnt want it anymore.
he wished that god take that away from him.

some attemptted to cheer him up and blame it on the financial crisis
but he knew it wasnt.

he wasnt silly though.
there are many things he havent done.
he doesn want to die young.

he could only say
christmas was nothing but just a children's fantasy.

christmas dunt exist.