To new chapter of life

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

ever heard this joke ?
where did number 9 go.

answer : seven, ate (eight), nine.

but my heart tells me, nine left me.
i remember the first few days when i couldnt accept the truth, i went into the state of denial.


Followed by weeks and weeks of sadness.
things got better when many people tried real hard to crave a smile on my face. (:
really appreciated.

people like daiqian! ruiting! and yeah kaixian and victoria (:

maybe things arent the same anymore but thinking back, i owe you all one.

somehow i regretted having a number 10.
its just not right because its unfair to her.
but i know words doesnt help anymore and i really dunt know what to do :x

i should leave this topic to next time when i know how to handle.

the main purpose is that i remember clearly the reason nine left me is because she wanted to be single again.
perhaps its just an excuse to make me feel better.

but in any case now, i want to shout out to all.

"i dunt feel the least bit of hatred towards you.
maybe i wasnt the perfect guy i thought i could be.

you will be able to find the perfect one soon (:
i wish you all the best.

and someday i wish i could be your friend again "

it doesnt matter whether nine will read it.
or whether people out there will like/dislike this post.

this is how i feel,
i need to get it off me.

i want to be happy :}
PEIJUN AUNTIE, CANCER PATIENT GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO CHEER UP (:

since their days are already numbered. hahah !