the art of patience.

today's english paper seemed pretty easy,
used quite a lot of colourful words that might

actually help in scoring better.

anyway theres something that
seriously bothering me.

therefore i shall make it clear once again that,
im studying because i want to study,

i want to reach janelle's target ! (:

NOT because i want to compare and make people depress and stuff.
neither do i have the thoughts to win or anything,

i don't even feel like comparing.

a quote from the ping pong show seems right,
where theres competitiveness, there won't be happiness.

so yeah im not comparing.

stroll with rhythms

whats up guys,
im here to catch my breath after straight few days of
hardcore studying!

and the biggest accomplishment is,
i finished all 6 chapters of physics !

actually its more than just 6 mindmaps,
after every mindmap, accompanies questions on that topic,

MCQS, short answer question and free response questions (:

ivan proudly shout out to all,
his ready for physics!

haha now im going to move on to geography !

major countdown !
still got 1 week to exams !

and 1 month till holiday.
seriously, i cant wait .

totally need a break yo (:

jiayou for tomorrow's english paper,
and of course the super long 'break'

or rather more intensive hours of studying.

at least friday we'll be able to stay up at wenjie's house.
maybe a new environment will be much more productive,

or maybe not? haha.

F9s or A1s ?
who cares,
im glad i studied

that felt great

its been really long since it rained,
so was the cooling weather,

been quite a while since school wasn't so stuffy and all.
well, i felt quite productive.

actually i thought about it,
results really doesnt matter much.

at least look things are this angle,
ivan bothers to try. (:

and was definitely successful trying to gain a smile on mdm tey's face.
or rather mr lim is right,

a smart student isn't important,
someone who is willing to work hard worths the value.

haha neither am i trying to score higher than people,
even if im last in anderson,

im still top few hundred in Singapore rights ?
my parents are understanding enough to only request for me to do my best.

which i currently am.

Of course, good luck to those who rather procrastinate because they claim to be smarter.

i can't be bothered,
my aim is to reach up to janelle's expectations,
thats cool enough (:

Totally new me.

lets all work hard for SA1 !
i cant post everyday recently as im really working hard (:

haha i will post my awe-inspiring mind maps for physics,
out of 6 chapters,

i completed 3 already (:
and every mindmaps, i completed difficult questions.

totally understand,
now i feel pretty confident.

i will continue to work hard,
to prove to those who looked down on me.

its my turn to look down on them.
and those who believed in me,

i will give them results :D

yeah jiayou !

i think that people who are slacking right now,
will start panicking when they know

ivan had long started revising already!

responses

24 Apr 09, 23:48 Calvin: LOL@ the boonhow stuff. what a paikia Ivan; haha its a scam! we did the paikia stuffs LOL

23 Apr 09, 22:00 Wei Lin: Your post very difficult to read sia. Words so big, so many spacings in between and have to scroll down like hell. Ivan; noooooooo words are big so its easier to read ! dont be lazy wei lin, just scroll down ! I LOVE JANELLE TOO (:

23 Apr 09, 20:04 Colleen: ivan is liar!!! that's not what happen lar. how can i fall on my butt if i trip over gladwin's stuff? haha...dun believe him!!! Ivan; rightssssssssss, so many people saw it -.-

23 Apr 09, 17:59 Janelle: HAhahha, Boon How the dragon rider. I think he'll suffer from abuses by Sarah. LOL! And I thought Boon How dont scold vulgarities. Seems like Sarah's really affecting alot. Ivan; LOL power of love you know (: im turning retarded because of you too. hehe

21 Apr 09, 22:46 Wei Lin: Tagged, since I love janelle. Ivan; hahah im going to learn from you again. ( tag again if you really love janelle )

20 Apr 09, 20:18 Bhlee: ....god Ivan; hahha nice to see your scandalous stuff

20 Apr 09, 17:17 stella: YOU DAMN SLOW CAN. I PLAY VIWAWA UNTIL SIAN ALREADY.. Ivan; serious meh -.- i dont know leh. people intro de.

20 Apr 09, 14:34 liting: lols..-.-'' Ivan; what -.-

19 Apr 09, 22:24 Wei Lin: So lag! Viwawa was played like Sec1 or something. HAHA. Ivan; LOL boon how intro de !

19 Apr 09, 16:32 Janelle: hahahhahah, LOL! You look funny with your curly hair last time.

19 Apr 09, 16:31 Janelle: OMG. You see how popular my blog is? I didnt even recommend and Yanting came here. HAHAHHAHAHA. Must take it that I win the competition, you're using my blog to advertise your blog. Ivan; yeah la omg. i didnt know my hair was so curly sia. tsk. LOL and the competition shd be postpone due to SA1 (:

19 Apr 09, 16:03 yanting: i saw ur appeal on janelle's blog and came here to save ur counter (lik how i save ur spa). thanks lik man(: Ivan; LOL im sure you came on your own accord !

19 Apr 09, 14:18 Damian: Eh your that photo funny sia. Like sleeping. Ivan; LOL not funny, damn ugly -.-

19 Apr 09, 12:45 CHUISHAN: dont come find me abt tagging thing k HAHA!

19 Apr 09, 12:45 CHUISHAN: HAHA. i viewed your blog for like many many times already! but i didnt tag D HAHAHA. Ivan; LOL yo. (:

18 Apr 09, 23:27 Fathi: Why you run!!!!!???? Ezan oso run man Ivan; tell you le ma, have you quit too ?

18 Apr 09, 23:12 Wei Lin: TAGGED, pro. And finally you replied to tags.

Ivan; hahah yeah pro :] i reply when theres a lot la. come more often ! 18 Apr 09, 21:42 Colleen: yay, 2/1!!! ask that kevin to organise badminton thing!!! i bet you miss me, haha kidding... Ivan; you want the truth ? actually not, i rather not see you again HAHA

temporarily matters.

i really shdn't be here right now,
instead i shd be mugging my ass off.

yeah im gone once i finish things here.

firstly, i had to stop blogging for a period of time after SA1,
because i dont want to score badly.

and i have a deal going on (:
janelle is my motivation of course!

quote of the week man,
don't do what you don't want people to do to you.

stop the childishness and grow up.
because you people are way to scary.

alrights man, im going to study physics now !
till next free time (:

short and sweet.

hey just a short update before i start revising.
its really depressing to receive a score like that for physics,

i should buck up !

and for the bad things that i've done today,
i really feel guilty now.

to prevent karma from falling on me,
i shall hence make up for it.

and since SA1 is coming,
i shall therefore study !

so please understand that i might not be able to post as often (:

something funny to end this post,

YESTERDAY !
retarded colleen wanted to hit me on my forehead,

that for revenge actually,
because i like hitting people on the forehead as they are fringeless !

but yeah, she suffered retribution straight away.

after she hit me, she quickly made her escape.
but tripped over gladwin's books chair
and fell right smack on her butt

that accompanied a ' BANG' sound.

yeah this whole thing are not supposed to appear here.
but who cares (:

Its time Ivan woke up from his dream and work really hard,
to perform to his abilities !

to someone : "please tag if you think that im jealous because you like janelle. "

LOL

the un-fabulous

taking naps in the afternoon seriously isn't something for me.
the thing is i can't sleep after bathing,

and i don't want to sleep without bathing. haha
yeah yeah im troublesome alrights.

anyway today's post will definitely be un-emo.

as there isn't common test starting from week 5 onwards !
lessons ended at 1.10.

which means we get to reach home earlier on mondays,
speaking of which,
i don't feel the monday blues today (:

but week 5 means extra lessons again, haix.

heres the interesting part of the post,
whereby it will be filled with other people's scandalous stuffs.
hehehe.

we spent the whole of history lesson talking about boonhow and sarah,
for dumbdumbs who don't know YET,
they are the most scandalous couple recently.

the weirdest in century too.
whereby boon how takes the female role.

they say sarah is the dragon,
and of course boon how is the dragon rider.

sounds right ?
think twice.

the whole thing goes like this,
sarah (dragon ) takes a ride on boon how ( the rider )
there you have it. (:

actually everything's quite retarded today.
had recess and moey was seated right beside me,
i was damn afraid his saliva might just fly out of his food-filled mouth.

anddddd i was right -.-
ended up something more disgusting flew out.

it was his bun with saliva.
surely an appetite spoiler, gross.

maths was retarded too,
i guess i ended up being too bored,
so i borrowed a paper from boon how and started the 'window live messenger'

haha and i plan to post everything here.
if you want to have a good laugh, continue reading (:

well whats a messenger without a display picture.

So..
- mine was a middle finger.

-boonhow's was his famous -o- face.

-gerald had his 'EMO' displayed

-damian had a picture of weilin which i drew LOL.
(but boon how suggested the girl to be wei lin. hehe

And the conversation went on !

Ivan; hey im bored! lets chat on 'window live messenger' !
boon; ok, lets add gerald and damian!
gerald; hey! im bored too ! school sucks...
Damian; Eh why got wei lin there !!

Ivan;10 more min ! im going to post about this with boon how's many scandalous stuff !
*ivan just sent a nudge *

Boon; F_ _ K sia. im tired.
Gerald; Nice word BH ! you're on the way to the path of a pai-kia
Damian; LOL boon how. clean as whistle. this topic difficult la.

Ivan;yeah boon how is turning into a full time pai-kia, other than watching porn
and buying pirated DVDs, now vulgar sia.
Boon; Eh not happy ah! fight la, gerald outside 3/3 after school !
Gerald ; F#*K you la ! Ch@o Ch+x B@!. I'll get ivan as backup.
Damian; come on la, we 3 on 1 the boon guy. he kneel down give us chocolate (:

Ivan; Bell ring ! Beat boon how!
Boon; Mummy ! i'll get my mother here.
Gerald; walao such a f@g. yea bell ring le. *crack knuckles * (:
Damian; the time has come..

Boon; i'll show you my power ! " transform"

-End-

hahah now you know how retarded a bunch of burly guys can get. LOL

oh i found out another thing !
(boon how's scandalous stuff number 6 )

do you know boon how slept with his dog on the floor yesterday night.

Ivan; why don't want sleep in the room ? -.-

Boon; Oh i watch show until 1am + then still need walk short distance than
reach bedroom. so i just sleep on the floor, very convenient.

this is a real life story from boon how himself.

well thats it from today.
come back for more boon how live in action ! (:

No big deal.

i just found out i had bruises in different parts of my body.

from the hardest part, my knee, which
was bruised when i dive for the shuttle yesterday.

to the softest part, my butt, which i doubt i had fell down.
but i wondered why the flesh couldn't take the impact.

yes i admit i have a rather big ass.

anyway got hooked up with chinese chess recently,
tried out this new web which someone recommended.

www.viwawa.com

for people who are interested in chess, try it !

thanks CHEO AUNTIE very listening to my nonsenses (:

the whole thing is called off, its nothing.

global warming is definitely getting on my nerves,
the constantly increasing temperature seriously boils my blood.

is Earth still a safe planet is live in ? haha.
well i learned that not working on weekends isn't that good after all.

its either eat or sleep,
because my mum had to work on my laptop.
neither do i have the mood to study.

thats a pretty bad though, come to think of it,
tomorrow is week 5 already. time to buck up ivan!

yesterday was pretty awesome though.
went for badminton with boon how, larry , weilin and qi hua.

met two sec 1 boys from some secondary school,
i can only say that looks are deceiving alrights.

those two boys were the height of qihua and only age 12 ( birthday has yet to arrive )
but their badminton skills were beyond words man.

enjoyed myself because its been a long time since i worked out,
my abs is drifting really far away now. :(

anyway we left at about 6 +
i really couldn't make it to bryan's tuition.
im really sorry girls ! i know you all are upset about it :x

well,many stuffs made me felt uneasy recently.
it bothers me so much that

im starting to suffer from insomnia.

perhaps the anesthetic worn off,
because the pain is coming back slowly

but for a different reason.


ivan is still cheerful though, i just needed somewhere or someone to pour my sorrows,
after the sorrow bucket is emptied,
the smile will still be there. (:

oh yeah i forget to mention,
boon how is willingly to do ANYTHING for vertical growth.

haha i remember how i emptied the
whole bottle of powdery cheese on his seafood fried rice.

looks pretty disgusting but yet he finished the whole thing,
the plate was sparkling shiny after his done.

haha i should have taken picture of the madness.
thats it, come back for more boon how's secret.

till next time (:

responses

18 Apr 09, 01:37

Fathi: Hey hey, my schedule is the same as u now. Save for sunday, i work only on saturdays. Wahahaha
Ivan; YO fathi, i played M.I.A today. i guess i wun be returning to long john anymore. keep in touch brother, i don't want to lose a good friend. you and ezan don't go running off without me. hahah if your looking for any jobs tell me (: ask my number from ezan.


11 Apr 09, 14:34

Janelle: Oh, and I cried and sit on the floor when I wanted the teletubbies toy when I was young. But my parents gave in to me, unlike yours. HAHA!

11 Apr 09, 14:33

Janelle: Good thing you understood what I told you. Well, I mean you're "more experienced in relationships" whattt.
Ivan; haha from the start when i decide to tell the whole world about it, im already mentally prepared (: and my parents gave in to me too ! i was just making things up hahah. you silly ass :]

17 Apr 09, 19:20 Wei Lin: Thanks! And are you staring at your blog?

17 Apr 09, 18:19 Wei Lin: You want tags, then go tag people. Because normally girls will return tag one. Haha. Ivan: you retarded ass. hahah forever going around the bush then brings things back to yourself. you just want me to tag yours right (: and HAHA im staring at my blog ratings.

16 Apr 09, 22:54 Janelle: LOL, You forgot to mention that you were also styling your hair with Damian's banana-flavoured gel that's spoilt. Ivan; LOLL shut up, im not so vain ! anyway that gel isn't spoilt i think.

16 Apr 09, 21:47 CHUISHAN: Hi. haha! does it make the rating to 30 now? dont get depressed haha! Ivan; LOL though it doesnt add up to 30 but every person counts ! thanks (:

16 Apr 09, 17:52 liting: lols for qustiong 49 ii prefer uu say u live wif ur family without marrying them..-.-'' Ivan; haha then it wldnt be unique ma (:

16 Apr 09, 14:37 Wei Lin: Yay congratulations for sitting with Janelle today. I know you loved it. Ivan; okay la actually (: cause janelle was nagging at me to pay attention the whole time. but yeah i love it LOL.

15 Apr 09, 21:30 Pei: cut*

15 Apr 09, 21:30 Pei: You won't die mysteriously because I am going to be in forensic science and I will cu up your intestines and find out how you died HEHEH. Ivan; wah -.- i think i should write a letter explaining how i die before i lose my last breath, because you this silly auntie will make my death even more mysterious. hahah

15 Apr 09, 21:20 yanting: LOL my cousin is called alexandra and she's a girl! Ivan; that name is unisexual ! and i was just writing what comes to mind. haha

15 Apr 09, 21:13 Janelle: Haha, you actually did the quiz tooo. IT REALLY KILLS TIME, too much in fact. LOL, how romantic can kissing someone in the truck be. I think it's more dumb than romantic. Ivan; yeah because it kills time. AND cant you tell the sacarasm in 'how romantic' haha you another retarded ass. *HUG*

15 Apr 09, 20:45 harshie: haha the quiz is funny at times and and i am surprised that u had the time to do such a long quiz even i would have freaked out haha Ivan; hahah actually the quiz wasnt really made up of 111 question. i counted so many missing number. LOL

15 Apr 09, 15:51 siting: hello... (: Ivan; yo sup (:

14 Apr 09, 21:40 Bryan: Sup man...haha hope ur life is better than mine right now. take it easy. tagged! Ivan; hahah my life is always great. come back soon !

14 Apr 09, 21:19 rebecca: awwwww aren't you touched yu jun? haha the photo is er...............haha funny:D and TAGGED! Ivan; hahha is this tag for me or yujun you ass (:

13 Apr 09, 19:26 Yi Ting: here is my blog ^_^

13 Apr 09, 19:26 Yi Ting: Tagged ^_^..still remember me bah...i know y eight stand for u..cos ivan tan. tan=8=0=egg...am i correct?..or wrong..>. Ivan; yo yi ting, still playing maple ? hahah and thats not the reason why. its just because i like eight and my jersey number is 8. thats all LOL. LINKED.

13 Apr 09, 16:26 yujun: OMG!!! thanks but i dun like picture haha Ivan; haha thats the best i can find (:

13 Apr 09, 16:04 Bhlee: and you are handsome!! ( my april's fool joke)

13 Apr 09, 16:03 Bhlee: eh yo ivan, you forced me here, now this is my unwilling, reluctant, sarcastic TAG. Ivan; get lost -.- go watch your porn. hahha

12 Apr 09, 15:41 Wei Lin: Bleah, so you want the whole world to know? Hahaha I'll help you. Ivan; no thanks ! the whole world knows already (:

Its too late.

Happy Friday the 17th.

due to speech day,
we only got two periods today.

P.E went on as usual without MR. S,
because we managed to find a relieve teacher who was desperately looking for 4/3 LOL

since 4/3 was no where to be found,
we took the chance to request him to take us for P.E.

played captain ball !

although it was still as fun but 2/1 's captain ball was the best (:
at least larry was around to balance out the two teams,

yeah im just trying to emphasize that im tall. hehe

anyway as usual physic was crap.

school ended at 940 !
boon how, haoyu together with jasmine, jiayi and zoey
came over to my house.

boon how decided to tell us a secret,
its about the fact that he had more 100 P_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ DVDs
(just to show that its not PORN )

LOL yeah thats the whole point abt posting it here,
now its not a secret anymore.

that poor boy was sooooooooo afraid of being caught possessing it,
therefore he decided to hide the disc in the midst of

many karaoke song discs HAHA.

yeah im not going to tell you what we did,
it was totally awesomeeee (quite)

thats to keep you guys in suspense
and hopefully someone would use something valuable to exchange for that information (:

nah we didn't do anything wrong.

after that me, jiayi and jasmine went to have deserts, cut hair and home.

i was conned to buy a $5 ice-cream for them, damn.

the worst part was,
i never get to know the truth until its too late.

i hate it. :/

because i came upon this OMG !

just look at me,
i couldn't believe im that person man.

and no one ever told me i was horrible looking
LOLL.

quite fortunate though but
i rather know the truth damn -.-

so i will just lock myself at home,
or cover my head with a plastic bag.

what a tramautising memory !





hahah the differences between now and back then is HUGE.

Don't get my message ?
your dumb (:

Happy birthday welin, peiyan and justin once again !

-sidetrack-

sometimes i really don't like the idea of knowing the truth,
only after everything is in place,

and no-one or nothing will be able to change.

glide with the wind ?
yeah just leave the feather hanging on its own.

just like i always wondered how a huge pile of ice can keep someone warm,
totally illogical.

Its the day ; my day ; today.

What's up, guys. Its thursday ! *screams*
other than friday and saturday, thursday can be counted as my favourite day of the week.

because we start our day with SEX TALK,
what a pity the lesson ended so quickly yet we enjoyed pretty much (:

envy hidhir who got to perform a skit with the oh-so-young teacher.
first look at him and i could tell immediately that
he was happy.

lucky boy. hehe
(P.S ; i will upload the video soon )
thanks to speech day, we've came to the end of week 4.
but i doubt I'll be able to get any rest though,
being packed with a tight schedule for tomorrow which starts from the moment sch ends.

thinking back, the fact that a student's life
is really much comfortable
prior to the number of holidays we get compared to adult's working life.

perhaps growing up faster became a nightmare to me.

teenagers should enjoy as much as they can,
thats one of the few commitments which i definitely would follow.

which brought me back regarding tomorrow,
hope that they will allow me to mess with boon how's xbox,

for a least one game.

depressing enough, in front of me stationed my X-box,
covered with estimated 5 cm of dust.

the thing is, i lost my controller IN MY CAR.
yes i can't find it. damn.

now im stuck with a X-box without controllers to play.
how bad can things get ?

anyway im quite proud of myself for being able to be much more productive than expected,
completed most of my over-due maths assignments,

which now leaves me with only geography.

being able to be seated next to Janelle during geography lesson,
yet still lazing around, daydreaming,

that shouldn't be the attitude,
i should/will change (:

meanwhile the 'big' 3s grew pretty bonded nowadays,
one of the factor that slowly takes the 'flirt' title off me.

should you not know,
'Big' 3s includes me, haoyu and boon how.

contradicting enough, i know.

conclusion for the week,
outcomes are sixty percent untrue usually,

we should look forward to everyday !

oh yeah, not forgetting.

Happy birthday Pearleen ! (16/4/09)

Happy Birthday Justin, Peiyan, Weilin ! (17/4/09)

have fun !

the outcome seemed pretty obvious,
quizzes does not attract readers,

ended up having my sitemeter's daily average reader to fall drastically.
precisely why im here to do some mending.

today can be counted as one of the most
interesting non-holiday, school days.

having 3/4 of our lessons for today doing practically nothing.
awesome eh ?

thanks to inter-national friendship day.
which kinda remind me of vivian and anju :x

anyway was forced to fork out two bucks to try out food made by our scholar friends,
i still prefer our typical canteen food, honestly.

at least we learnt that wendy from our class could really sing well.
when she dress up,

its totally jaw-dropping!

basketball training was pretty tough in a way today,
serve me right for not exercising recently
and gorging plates after plates filled with food.

damn, i turning into a fat ass again.

and haoyu keep emphasizing on this logic,
whereby you would think that the girl you love have a nice fragant,
even though she might stink real bad.

was from the channel 8 show i guess.

but was proved quite right though.
hahah i won't say why :x

alrights, there's a friend in need,
i need to go off now.

when a friend is in need,
im definitely a friend indeed :]

Ask-a-thorn

I'm bored without anything interesting to post.
but i came upon this quiz from JANELLE's blog (:

since its good to spice things up occasionally,
and the quiz seriously kills time.

why not ?

Here goes nothing.
1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
i have a feeling i might get irritated half-way.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
define whats real and whats not.

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
LOL i say that to any random girl when im feeling random. but JANELLE !

5) Do you regret it?
nah since she will give me that awkward smile that make her so cute :} haha

6) Have you ever been depressed?
duh, when my pimple doesn't subside.

8) Are you a boy or girl?
boy

9) What is your relationship status?
pre-attached situation

10) How do you want to die?
mysteriously

11) What did you last eat?
chicken drumstick rice/popcorn chicken/pear/chocolate
i think i need my exercise soon -.-

12) Played any sports?
yeah.

13) Do you bite your nails ?
after i wash them real clean.

14) When was your last physical fight?
whats a physical fight ?

15) Do you have an attitude?
no doubt about it.

16) Do you like someone?
haha the whole world knows (:

17) What is your real name?
Ivan Tan Zhi Xuan

[where's question 18]
oh nice joke, the question is wheres question 18. LOL

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
later as in tomorrow, yes

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
too mentally taxing to hate, i rather not.

21) Do you miss someone?
yeah, i think so.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
curly and spinny.

23) Do you tan a lot?
when anderson doesn't have a indoor sports hall. now im UV protected.

24) Have any pets?
does boon how count ? haha kidding (:

25) How exactly are you feeling?
boredddddddd, can someone pleeeease get online.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
once im in my car, I'll sleep seriously.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
No and never will i guess, too slippery accident might occur.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
Its not up to me. but i won't look back.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
after so many years living with many in this house, why would i still be.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
can the chance be going to the future ?

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
lots.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
I have to work. damn -.-

33) Do you want to have kids?
first i have to find the greatest women and together with me, we will create the best human being ever.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
mother, when i was young.

35) Do you type fast?
Don't challenge me.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
none.

37) Want any more?
what anymore, i don't have !

38) Can you spell well?
W-E-L-L, yeah here you go.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Anyone that i will miss are still around me, present.

40) What are you craving right now?
marigold mango juice.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
sorry, my english sucks.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
nope not horses, elephants! a horse cant hold my weight a few years back.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
how romantic.

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yeah im sorry.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Not sure.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
aiyaaa im sorry. -.-

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
definitely not a guy, but if the girl don't mind (:

50) What should you be doing ?
Its kind of my off day.

51) What’s irritating you right now?
6 more years till im legal for everything.

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yes but i prefer to keep it as a nice memory (:

53) Does somebody love you?
haha there's this girl that i keep rejecting but she never did understand LOL.

54) What is your favorite colour ?
Black.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah, in a rush.

57) Do you have trust issues?
i don't understand.

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yeah we're like good friends !

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
no comments.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
No one.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Im not sure myself, but i don't get angry easily.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Its easy to forgive AND forget.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
When i finish my education, that year will be.

67) What was your child hood nickname?
"ah-bue" ( fatty in hokkien ) LOL

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
I'll be in jail if i ever done such things.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
finally someone with the same mentality (:

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
I yawned once.

73) What is bothering you?
my rabbit can't stop biting my computer wires.

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
province.. ? errr..yeah.

75) Do you play the Wii?
too mature for such thing.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
apparently, im using my com in the living room.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
Im multi-racialist, no biased thinking, anything seems fine.

78) Do you know your father's b- day?
b-day ? birthday yes.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
not afraid until mr. eu told us his stories -.-

80) Is cheating ever okay?
ever heard of white lie ? "white cheat" is okay too.

81) Are you mean?
not to myself.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
if i keep it in the box.

84) Do you believe in true love?
used too, not now. but one day i will find it.

88) Do you like the outside?
i prefer staying in.

89) Are you currently bored?
DUH.

90) Do you wanna get married?
YES. i think this question was asked before.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
If a boy calls me that, i will freak out.

92) Are you hungry?
after eating so many things ? are you nuts -.-

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
sorry, still virgin

94) What makes you happy?
I only know basketball keep me emotionless. i enjoy it when im upset.

95) Would you change your name?
too what ? alexandra seems okay. LOL

96) Ever been to Alaska?
where ?

98) Do you watch the news?
rights.. -.-

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
im getting irritated, is this finishing ?

100) Do you like Subway?
OH remind me of the footlong incident.

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes.

[where's qn 102]
ahhh ass, this question again -.-

103) Do you talk like your friends?
how different can we get.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
yeah.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
haha i have many i think.

107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Jasmine!

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
no thanks to a girlfriend who smokes.

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
deep conversation ? as in ?

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
not sure but i like the song " your call "

111) Can you count to one milllion?
YES.



YES LA, im going crazy answering to many question at one go,
but as a form of training my patience,

its okay i guess.

at least one post thats not emo rights (:
alrights, get entertained !

A thing in the past

Drained and exhausted,
i decide to give it a good thought.

only to realise all my attempts seem so futile,
its not easy or rather impossible to please everyone.

only someone with great characters will be able to achieve,
sorry for being such a disappointment,

i dun't have what it takes.

somehow i feel that i had changed,
not knowing whether its good or bad but im satisfied with the way things are now.

it might be about principles, it might be able being noble in character,
but for some reason, its kind of hard for me to comprehend.

maybe im just selfish, i want to be happy.
i feel more myself carrying on with the way it is now.

the fact that nobody is perfect is undeniable,
to ease things a little, i should therefore admit,

yes im not that good.

taking the opportunity to also express my thoughts,
i felt that we are drifting off.

things can never be the same anymore,
afterall we now belong to different cliques

and to prevent matters from being awkward,
its the nature of life.

well as much as how you feel that I've changed,
i do think in some way your different.

but i choose to respect who you are,
i wish you respect me too.

to briefly conclude a little,
happy moments don't last,
at least we were once part of a happy memory.

to Sky Sir and Fazi Mdm,
I'll sure to miss you guys,

Now, im off to fulfill my mini ambition,
to become a salesman at some cool sports outlet.

of course i will work towards this ambition only during the holidays,
meanwhile life goes on.

whisper in my ears, show me what to do.

Hey, ever wonder what falls on 11april ?
that very day used to be of no significant to me.

but ever since i met that very special person
11 april isn't as ordinary anymore.

thanks yujun, because of you,
my life became much colourful (:

Happy Birthday, You silly ass!

fate really played a part,

being among the thousands in anderson,
among the millions in singapore,
and among the many many billion in the world.

fate led me to you (:
thats how we first met at bryan's tuition,

get to know each other more during history class.

and today, we'll be the best of friends.

frankly speaking , my first impression of you was,
"another typical drama student"

but time proved me wrong.

i learnt that this girl isn't that girlish afterall,
she likes to tell cold jokes.

and really stubborn,
for repeatedly refusing to admit having a crush on 'erhem'

though this few points might not seem appealing to you,
but they mean a lot to me in different ways.

without you, i would probably become the only boy in the group,
thanks for trying to make me feel more comfortable by acting man,

appreciated really, although i suspect you have the hidden agenda to hook up on girls :o
but thank you.

and always there to spice up my jokes (:
like what they say,

" whats a good joke without a cold joke "
" whats ivan without yujun "



its one of my greatest blessing to know you,
i will never forget you.

as promised to make it the best birthday ever,
i really hope you had a great time.

once again.
happy birthday !

Stay tuned !

The owner of this blog is very busy recently,
but considering the fact that the effort he put in to revive this blog

is totally unmeasurable.

therefore, he promise to update real soon by 14th of april.

some extracts of his post-to-be :

-happy birthday yujun and her celebration.

-" please he who pleases you "

-my small ambition to be fulfilled

if your interested to check out the content,
please be sure to come back for another visit.

yours sincerely,
ivan (:

Responses

daiqian: you seem to havce forgotten what you told me.

10 Apr 09, 17:52 daiqian: lol so you do realise you have a flirting bug. (: and LOL @ junxi & wenjie's photo. Ivan: Yo brother, yes i finally realised and im trying to cut down already. definately not forgetting what i told you and keeping it in mind. but its impossible to say not to love and you wun. the least i can do is not start another relationship (: so dunt worry alrights ?

9 Apr 09, 23:27 ruiting: twin, its no about whos letting go not. it is about having principles. Ivan: i really don't understand what you mean about having principles. maybe you would like to explain to me someday. im just trying to live my own life happily.

9 Apr 09, 22:28 rebecca: hehe sorry will reply on next update :P and i still cant believe it:O!!! Ivan: haha alrights, haha dunt know what to say, not in the right mood.

9 Apr 09, 21:37 Calvin: hellos! tag. Ivan: yo welcome to my blog (:

9 Apr 09, 19:43 Wei Lin: Haha publicising your love. Ivan: haha can be counted as la, since so many people dunt believe. i think many people are also offended in the process but i meant to express what i feel. so haha (:

8 Apr 09, 16:40 liting: ohh so uu will reply tags de arhs?? oO'' tag Ivan: duh, whats with the big big tag sia -.-

7 Apr 09, 22:09 Bryan: But he's not kidding Ivan: haha go away la.

7 Apr 09, 22:03 Janelle: Omg, I think everybody's going to find out. LOLLLL. You dont seem that you're kidding now. Ahahhahah. & Wenjie looks so gay in that pic, as usual. Ivan: JANELLE ! haha indeed my blog is popular. wahhaha. i totally understand what you said in msn. im going to post abt it (: the wenjie and junxi picture was suppose to bring out my menliness. LOL

7 Apr 09, 20:53 Damian: Go go I support you in your Janelle campaign. Ivan: yeah right, for your bet only. ass

7 Apr 09, 20:11 Bryan: omgosh janelle... Ivan: LOL are you done -.-

7 Apr 09, 15:49 Janelle: I cant tag about anything if you dont post, because I have nothing to comment about. LOLLLL. But yeah, this is counted as a tag, so YAY. Ivan: alrights alrights, im going to try to post more often (: do visit often yo. haha you seriously very random. hehe :)

7 Apr 09, 00:32 Fathi: Hey Ivan, Know who this is? Haha, link me up ass

Ivan: YO fathiMA ! of course i know who you are. linked. you then ass.

6 Apr 09, 21:33 Jasmine A: narh, your tag i owed you since..saturday. HAHAHA. tsk why post that ugly photo! ): and you didnt rang wo okay! must yuan du fu shu ;D Ivan: wah its been a looooong while since you tagged ! TSK. anyway that photo is nice LOL. yeah la you win la.

6 Apr 09, 20:46 yanting: that's so tempting! *points to the ham n cheese baked rice* Ivan: LOL yum yum, its long digested in my stomach (:

a petal from the rose.

occasionally pieces of memory from the past will flash through my brain,
remember the time when i was still ignorant and childish.

everytime i wanted something badly,
i would just cry and sit on the floor to protest.

it never really worked.
i never once got what i wanted.

soon, i would just think that everything was pointless,
turned out only to be an irritant, a pain in the ass.

believing in " whats yours is yours, no point worrying "
never once was i upset or worried abt
not being able to achieve.


the point is, no use frowning over things that dunt belong to you ; move on.

not knowing how to solve this situation,
but here i am, already very hated by your clique,

just voicing out what i wish to convey.
bad thing is, i dunt think i'm able to stop posting what i wish to say.

good thing is, i'll try.

but i don't change for just anyone.

alrights end of emotional talks,

MAJOR COUNTDOWN : 2
11 april 09 will be the first 11april that is important.

YUJUN BIRTHDAY !

will be celebrating in advance tomorrow.
pictures and post will definately come in.

stay in tune to "Ivan's daily FM"

i dunt think im kidding.
but i suddenly forget what to do.

or maybe your just different.
i guess i should just let nature take its course.

persevering til the day comes (:
i miss you janelle :x

bottled up feelings, time to throw them offshore.

day after day, just like never ending supply of oxygen,
homework never ever stop piling in.

if night-time gives trees some time to stop work,
who will ever give us time to rest.

sometimes i wonder whether everything around me is real,
are you guys real ?

do i really exist as something called human ?
or are we just a character in a game, being controlled all the while.

playing with our emotions, torment us when we look just too happy.

perhaps i'm the only one around that is real,
everything else is an illusion caused by my brain.

but irony is,
i can't seem to control my thoughts,
nothing seem to be what i expected it to be.

but heck, who gives a damn.

at least i still got something i yearn for,
sufficient to keep me going.

like the sudden urge to keep fit after so many years of slacking.
been pretty depressed that many other male schoolmates could do pull ups without sweat.

yet i could merely do 1.

embarrassing enough, i know.
and of course abs, the final approval i need to get

before i am willing to go suntan at sentosa with hot babes (:

well the thing is, i cant sense the presence of the flirt bug recently. :x
its either im too drained to hook up on girls,

or its just that i only hang out with the same few.

or maybe its because Janelle don't trust me because i'm too flirt :}
therefore im cutting down. haha

i kind of miss her craziness during the weekends, serious.
i don't see why such a unique person should be left unprotected

perhaps i might be the one someday (:

whatever the case,
i will smile and live everyday as it is.

P.S: i think i look nice somehow in this picture

like again, i won't be bothered whether
you guys out there like/dislike it

but i love it (:
its what i call cooooooool !



but they have a different style of being cool i guess..



















Till next time. kindly tag thankyou.

responses

5 Apr 09, 19:26 aleithia: my name has an I in it. it's A-L-E-I-T-H-I-A, get it? and cadids fun okay. see all your unglam shots. Ivan: yeah big and nice, i get it now haha (: no, imagine all your unglam shots :o and just because i said your pretty, your climbing all over my head huh. heheh :D

5 Apr 09, 02:57 Ezan !: y not recommend LJS Ultimate Combo to ur frens too.Sir will surely LOVE you,bro...& hit my stomach when water is in my mouth..cheers!

Ivan: eeee maybe when sky was around, i might just do so. now johnny is an ass :O AND im not stupid LOL. you dumb dumb. 4 Apr 09, 22:52 Colleen: hey!!! you sound like you've grown up from little fat, not very wise ivan...which is good, haha!!! Ivan: i appreciated it for tagging, others not so. lols. but come often(:

4 Apr 09, 22:24 rebecca: TSK you idiot ......! productive lor! like you and jas weren't teasing each other and doing stuff haha Ivan: haha i said i swear you guyys DIDNT. me and jasmine were doing our work lor. except for scolding each other stupid. no more le haha.

4 Apr 09, 21:08 Bryan: What the hell man....what the hell.... Ivan: haha i said DIDNT DIDNT DIDNT

4 Apr 09, 10:33 aleithia: lo, hello hello (: Ivan: yo yo yo. linked :D

3 Apr 09, 23:39 Janelle: IVANN! You dont look like those who will write those kind of things about forgiveness and blah. Sounded so wise. AHAHA. Ivan: AH NELLE, i really miss you LOL i think i mean it :x come often k ! i think i replied on your blog. :)

2 Apr 09, 22:10 liting: nono..i'm still not gonna tag uu.. Ivan: hey you just did -.-

2 Apr 09, 21:20 rebecca: why you force people to tag why ?!?!?!?!?!? haha jk jk tagged tag mine too kays haha DD ! Ivan: no i didnt force you ! :} yeah i tagged yours but you didnt reply. tsk.